Our Wedding Day

Our Wedding Day

Monday, August 31, 2015

A Gift Without a Birthday

Today is September 1, 2015.  Today was suppose to be your birthday.

Mark Twain said "The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why." But what if you were never born? What if your life ended before you could ever celebrate a birthday?

What meaning does your short life have then?

I will tell you that it meant everything to us.  You may never  have drawn a breath in this world, but your life had a tremendous impact.

You brought overwhelming joy to us. You taught us an incredible love that we never knew. You brought dreams to life and hope for the future. 

You were a miracle! You are a miracle.  You will always be our miracle.

Your life is a gift. That is why we named you Nathan "Gift of God."  You have been a gift to us from the moment you were conceived.

Our hearts are broken that we cannot celebrate your birthday today, but we can celebrate the miracle of your life.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

A Father's Day Letter

Dear Dad,

I wanted to take some time to wish you a Happy Father's Day! I realize I'm a pretty lucky kid because a lot of kids don't have dads that are as great as you.

Thanks for changing my diapers and holding me when I would cry.

Thanks for all the bedtime stories and for sneaking me cookies when mom wasn't looking

Thanks for my first Redsox game.

Thanks for teaching me how to ride a bike and play soccer.

Thanks for helping me with my homework and watching all my favorite movies with me.

Thanks for teaching me how to talk to girls.

Thanks for helping me buy my first car.

Thanks for moving all my stuff in and out of my college dorm each year.

Thanks for the advice on my wedding day.

I'm sorry we didn't get to make any of these memories because I died before I was born. But I know it would have been great. I guess we'll just have to wait till heaven to talk about our favorite sports teams and catch up.  I really wish I could have met you dad. I heard mom talk about you when I was inside of her and  I would think "wow...can't wait to meet my dad."

 Even though I'm not here this Father's Day I still wanted to give you this letter as a gift to remind you that you will always be my dad. Take care of mom and I can't wait to see how many brothers and sisters I will have.

 Don't forget to make some amazing memories because I want to hear all about them when we meet in heaven.

Love you son,


Monday, June 1, 2015

Finding Joy Along the Journey ( A short Monday reflection)

After 4 years of infertility and one ectopic pregnancy....it can sometimes feel like everyday is Monday. Another weekend ends and inevitably you know you are going to have drag yourself out of bed to start the week again.

Its the best analogy I can think of because another month ends and you have been through so many months and even years that the negative pregnancy test seems inevitable. Then you have start another month all over again. The loss of our baby has by far been the biggest trial of our marriage.

But no matter how more Mondays Brian and I have ahead of us, (and I pray it isn't many more) we are committed to enjoying each and every single day. We have love each other and we have fun! Thank you God for placing this man by my side.

Jeremiah 29:11

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.